I understand what you mean about judgement.. I am type 1 and I haven't been in very good control of my diabetes for the past little while. Though I'm working hard to change that . I was diagnosed when I was 6 on my birthday lol what a way to celebrate
anyways I had lost too much weight with my blood sugars being over 20 all the time and when I finally started taking control of it all I started to gain weight back. Before my a1c was about 13 and I was sure it had gone down. But even though I first walked in so proud of my accomplishments for all that work my pediatrician just looked at me like I was overweight at 120 lbs :/ and all she said was you've gained weight and told me to exercise more... I was finally at a healthy weight and they just judged my weight rather than looking at my disease at hand after that I didn't want to go back and I got a really angry message on my cel phone from one of the peds. Even so now I have gained a few pounds and yeah a little exercise would do me some good but even my father ( whom I work with btw ) tells me infront of all my colleagues that I'm fat or mentions my stomach or tries to grab the skin under my chin. As being diabetic I hate telling people that I am and mainly for that reasons .. At school I never took my injections or tested my sugars . I believe people can be beautiful at any weight and I just can't stand when people judge you for it or when people know you are diabetic and treat you cruelly for it. I told my parents I was depressed and they said I was making excuses.. I hope not to sound like a whiner or after my next sentence, naive, but I think it's hard for people who don't go through those problems and lack such experiences really know how hard it is. Type 2 Is just as harsh as type 1 I'm sure and being a larger size Doesn't give anyone. Not even doctors the right to criticize I mean I'm no model but I'm not condemned for it. I feel average and it took me a long time to be ok with myself. My mother was called fat my father and she had thyroid issues ... Shes always been a healthy person and I don't get how rude he can be.
I'm sorry if my post was in any way disrespectful or unwanted . I really just wanted to say that no matter what you should be proud of yourself for even facing a doctor who is so rude. I wish I could've stood up the those peds and saw back then that I was supposed to be happy as myself and be proud of myself. Keep your dream alive! I think you'd be wonderful
