just did a quick read through but didn't see anyone mention depression or diabetes burnout.
these are very real things and I experienced both of them when I was diagnosed at 17 as well. I was great for the first few months, and then I went to college and spun wildly out of control and fell into a denial stage for many months following, landing me in the hospital again.
I did this many times for 3+ years before I was finally able to realize what I was doing to my body and my health.
bottom line, people can talk to you until they're blue in the face, but YOU have to be ready to take care of yourself. it's okay to have some days where you just don't want to deal with it - we all have those. but you have to just acknowledge it and move on. there's no such thing as a "bad" or "good" diabetic - they're just numbers on a meter. especially with T1s - we have the ability to have our blood sugars go from 30 to 300 within an hour! this stuff is hard! take a deep breath and realize that this is a lifelong thing - you don't have to learn everything overnight, take your time with it and take care of yourself when you're ready - nobody can do this but you.
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